我讨厌现在的我..

Now form4 edi..

I want to be better than b4..

But there's no point that i rush too fast..

And it will brings me alot of trouble..

I started get into troubles..

Not alot.. But its makes me goin to be blank in my mind..

I dunno how others think about me..

But i know I've changed..

MY LIFE's GREY

Changed to sum1 that I nvr wanted to be..

Its so scary..

I dunwan to be like this..

Bcoz it maked me feel uncomfortable..

This is not the real me..

I suppose to be good and kind as b4..

But why..?

My temper.. My attitude..

Everythin in me..

Seems so hard to control..

I wan to be better in my studies..

But im too rush..

Rush untill its not the way I wan..

My tears drops..

Not droplet..

But look like a dropper..

Not reali easy to make it stop..

I wanna be better..!!

Can I..?

Will it be..?