Problem around me??

Errrr. thats some problem around me.
But the problems are not my problem.
But its a problem.
But not my problem


-.- Ehh, confused kan?
Actuali the problem is my fren's problem.
Ummu and syahrina :(





So are that consider my problem?
HAHAH




Btw, i hope they are fine now kayyy.
Guys are all liar.
Just beware ohh :)




HAHAHAHAHA
Ummu u kan cantik giler, pandai giler.
Semua giler giler gileeeerrr :)

Takkan xde orang nak.
So, cheer yrself up and stay strong laaaa :)
SAYANG U






And untuk syahrina,
Cheer jee lah kay :)




I always here with u laa
SAYANG U JUGAKKKK :)


<3

Holidays? Gonne be like helllll :(

Holidays gonna be a good good day?
OH NO !! I dun think so.



Form4 syllabus is tough
Its killin me 4 almost 10 months times.
And the conclusion is









Im dead !!
HAHAHA




Definitely yearnin for a good results will be postin to my hse.
But
This is what we called - I M P O S S I B L E -
Correct?


Hurmmmmmmm

Im sorry.

Baby
Im sorry.
For actin like this just because of very small case.
I didnt mean to.


Forgive me please,
I know im rough to u sumtimes.
But seriously,
I dun like others to stop me doin sumthin
Whatever i posted in my FB is reali whats inside my heart.
I just wan to share.
Baby, understand me?
Im not that strong
Im not.
I need yr hug.




Onli yr hug can makes me stronger.
Please.






:(
Forgive me.
I always love u.






Seriously,
I hope ur not shiftin back to JB :(
I dunwan u to stay far from me even 1 day baby :(





iloveu

I must be regret if one day u left

Hurmm..
Kinda sad bcoz of family problems.
What a family like that?


Is money reali important, mama?
I dun understand



And is that reali hard to open yr mouth and talk to us, papa?
What is in yr mind? Tell us.
We wan to know..



Everytime we talk to u..
Ur face shows us that u got nth to say besides answerin our question.
We're yr children rite?
We're rite?
So whats the point u shut yr mouth when ur not suppose to?
We must communicate u know..



We're tryin so hard to find a chance to have family time with u, dad..
Do u know that?
Y must u work on that day?
We suppose to hang out together.
We suppose to have our time to talk and to understand each other better.
But u've wasted the time.

U choose to work and u didnt wan to hang out with us? Why?
.................................. * alot question mark *





Well..
I went to church today.
Pastor was preachin.
She shared her experience of God to all of us.
It was kinda a touchin story I ever heard.


She told us bout her family.
Her family is worst than mine.
How the family looks like when a pair of couple - Her dad n mum -
always fight for little stuff



For example.
Her dad has alottttt girl friendSSSS * Its alotttt *
Her mum own others moneySSSSS * Its alotttt *



They were fightin about all these stuff..
Bcoz of this issue, they broke their relationship and finally DIVORCE.
How sad is this situation?



But once the father fallen ill
The pastor sent him to hospital and no one knows what is actuali happens to her father..
And then,

GF gone.
Career gone.

But he got bck his wife.

Her father soon accepted GOD and he's willing to become the son of GOD.
Its amazin






I hope my dad and mum can be like them also.
:(
Will keepon prayin for them. AMEN.

Hmmmmmmmmm..

Ouh yeahh..!!
Today mornin was the first day I saw SING YEE and YI PING..!!
Bcoz of the tuition class..
Kinda miss them so muchh.. :)



So, as usual..
We talked alott..
PING told me bout her things and I told her bout mine :(
Kinda sad just bcoz of * THAT *




I hope we can settle it as soon as POSSIBLE.
Bcoz it has been troubled us for few days..
I feel like givin up..
:(
Should I?
NO WAY....!!!! ahahahah xD






PING ahh PING,
I hope yr decision will brings u to a hapinness endin okie
I'll definately be there for u when u need me :)





Ouh yeahh..
Tmr is THURSDAY
Gonna go to YIPING's house..
Yes, to do our ACCOUNT FOLIO..!!



AISHHHH -.-
Its killin us..
We actuali dunno how to start it so we decided to have a discussion tmr.



Hope to finish it.. At least part of it..
I dunwan to get scold by TEACHER :(





GOOD LUCK to 3of us babe :)
Heeee........






AND NOW
I MISS HIM :((((


FAlllING IN L0v3 <3

Aishhhh.. RAYA :(

RAYA......
First of all.. I would like to wish all Islamic a
Happy Raya Day and..
have an AWESOME celebration :)




Yes, I've been a long time didnt post everythin in my life that I actuali used to do b4
Hee.. My life now is changed..
Changed in what way??


Lets figure out babe :)



Yup, kinda happy to meet a new friend.
XIAO ZHA BOOO :)



KOR YI PING
:)


Im happy to be with her and now we are oredy best friend.
I hope our relationship can remains like now untill we DIE :)



Besides,
I would like to say SORRY
Sorry to my old friends..


Especially YENYENG's gang..
I think I might make u all feel like LEFT OUT..
But actuali ur all in my HEART. The bottom of my HEART babe :)




Im here to apologise for ignorin u all since YIPING came to this sch..
I didnt mean to do that
But just coz of sum issue and I HAVE TO.


As u know,
She is NEW.. We have the responsibility to help her in studies..
Or even making friends and enlarge the relationship circle..




Is tryin to change myself.. Get bck my life ..!!
Awwwww.. Started a NEW RELATIONSHIP.



And..
It makes me feel happy but at the same time,
It can drives me crazy :(



Hurmmm..
I hope everythin happen now is just a moment..
Settle down.. Will be okie then :)

Always BELIEVE in myself that I can cope with the stress
DO MY BESTTTT ..!!





Start from now on..
I will do better in my studies

PHYSIC FAILED?
NVM.


CHEMISTRY FAILED?
NVM.


ADD MATHS FAILED?
NVM.



There's always another CHANCE.
Just 1 more time..!!






I gonna pass u all :)

IM SICK OF IT ..!!

IM SICK OF IT!!!!!
Hmmmmm..

Im reali sick of everythi.. How hard just to forget everythin..
Sadly.. The more u wan to delete all the sad memories
the hard u forget bout it..




These few days,
Im totally not in a mood..
Tryin to crack a smile just to let them know IM OKIE..
But.. Am i reali look happy?













All bout studies..
I did tried my best..
I DID!!!!


Trust me for once? Please :(





Other than that..
Im frustrated bcoz of u..
I hope u know what Im reali yearni for..
U used to be so happy whenever ur textin with me..
But why u changed now?




If ur tired
Tell me..
I'll give u time to rest..
I know u tired of comfortin me..
I dunno why these few days Im actin like that..
I mad at u all the time
Being so frail..

"----[]--- put this
----[]--- on your
----[]---facebook page
[][][][][] if you're
----[]--- not embarrassed
----[]--- to tell
----[]--- others that
----[]--- you believe in
----[]--- God.
96% of people won't stand up for God. 4% Will.

Live Strong!"

I hate to be in love.

First of all..

I would like to tell to u all that I've got a new friend..

She's kind and friendly..

Its freakin weird that we always speak malay but actuali we are chinese!!

AHAHA..

Linly, THANKS

:)

Hurmm..

I used to laugh alot and alot..

But recently

My face looks like so cool je..

Some of my friend always ask me what the hell happends on me..

But i replied them

: Nothing and tryin to fake a smile.

Bcoz i believe that if I smile to the world,

and the world will smile to me..

I used to think positively.

:)

About him,

Im dissapointed,

He's changed and I dunno what to say bout him..

But in my heart

He's still the best one among all of them..

I always thank God that sendin me a guy like him

I hope our relationship will remains like that

and it will never turns to an end of arguement..

Our relationship is a circle that is no end

:)

I do know how it feels like when some1 u love is cryin

WE BOTH CRIED.

You @ Me

Be stronger.

What God wants me to do?

What God wants me to do? I always ask myself..
But I didnt get the answer.



God, tell me what u want from me?
What can I do for me?
Im useless lah..



Everytime I think of u, I feel guitly..
I dun deserve u.. and yr love..
But u first loves me, so that I know the feelings of love..



Love God first, above all else and that we love others as we love ourself..
So that I can fullfill God's requirement? IS THAT TRUE?



BUT,
I USUALY PUT MYSELF FIRST..!!
This is exactly opposite what we are called to do
This is why I hate myself..
Just feel like punchin the wall and break myself into pieces..!!



Change me please, with the power of YOU, my Lord.

God.

Thanks God..
For sent me a mum like her..
Mummy..


MUMMY..

=)


I LOVE U..!!
I do appreciated u so much..
I do care for u..
I do love u soooooooOOOO much..
More than u know..



MUMMY

=(



IM SO SORRY
For my sturburness..
For my harshness..
For what I've done which makes u angry and sad..



But..
I do love u so much..




THANKS GOD..
For giving me a mummy like this..
From the love of my mum..
I can see Your love to me..
And I felt it..!!




MUAKSS.

U just dunno how's my feelings.

Im too over..

Its time for me to let go of everythin..

Which is not belong to me..

What for i go and catch and catch and catch..?

In the end..

I got nothin..

Im strong.. Im strong..

Im stronger than u thought

Im tryin to put aside what they think of me.

Maybe Im reali not qualified to have all these things.

But Im tryin to improve myself..

Can u please wait for me.

Slow down yr steps and try to look behind.

Im still waitin u to comfort me.

But u DIDNT..

Yea.. Its reali easy to say than DONE.

All I can do is to trust in u.

Believe that ur mine and Im yours.

Im tryin to be better.

Randomly posted. :)

Hwee..
It feels like long time i didnt update my bloggie..
Must be up to date abit ..!! HAHA



Well,
Im busy buSY BUSY with my homeworks..!!
Its a mountain of HOMEWORKS..

Aggghh..!! Dun feel like doin it u know..
But too bad..!! I must finish it by this Wednesday..
Or not Im goin to kill myself






Hmm..
Exam is coming soon..
I WILL STUDY..!!



HAHA..

Webcam-ing with Edwin

Hee..
He's so cute..
I hope to pinch his face lah..
Hee






Muakss..
Love u dear..!!

God.. Why are u so good to me..?

God.. Why are u so good to me..?
I dun deserve it.. Its true.. But..
WHY??!! Why are You so good to me..?




U comforts me when Im down..
U feels me when Im in need..
Why are You so good to me..?




Sumtimes I think that U nvr listens to my prayers..
But actuali..
You do listens to me..
You're helpin me..
You're doin sumthin in me..



NOW I FEEL IT..!!
God..
Please show me yr love




EVERY SECOND
EVERY MINUTE
EVERYDAY..!!




Thanks you for DIE for us..
Thanks you for the love and care..






I'LL LOVE U..
<3

I feel so guilty.. Who knows?

Dear Lord.. I know Im sinned..
Pleas ebring me bck to u..
I went to church today..
And I felt the love from You..
It cannot be seen.. Or even touch..
But FEEL..!!




I tot You leave me..
But actualy no..
I love him..
What can I do now?





Sis disagree with us..
But I dO LOVE HIM..
So much..





I hope Im not goin to cry tmr..
Bcoz Im STRONGER than u know..





I LOVE U GOD..!!
Sry

Congrats to YENYENG and JIA ROU

Ohh thanks God.
So much..


Yen yeng and Jia rou got TOP 2 in their class..!!
Not bad hor..!! <3
See.. God's so powerful..
But they are smart too..!!



Dun give up..!!
Get THE FIRST nex time okie..?



Good luck my baby frens..!!
Muakss

The lyrics of MY song - The smile on my face -

I open the window

My eyes is lookin at the sky

There's a rainbow after the rain

And I know Im thinkin of u

Kiss me and you will see the stars

Love me then I'll give them to u

* UUUUUuu iu~~ *

I love u more than u know

I just wish u didnt have to go

Lets see the smile on my face

And I know thats what u wanted too

I open the window

My eyes is lookin to the brightest star

Now I can imagine how much I love u

And u just have to say love me too

_______________________________________________ _____________________

Ahh.. Is makin the melody..

Hope can finish by this week..

Lets bless me..!!

I'll sing it to all of my fren

* LOUDLY *

Bcoz I like to sing

Baby

Red box

Ohh yeah.. Its me

Mr.Shean leh..!! Handsome lah..

I faint lah when i was takin pics with *HIM*

=) See..!! Again xD

Lets eat..!! xD

Shean ahh Shean..!! How can u be so handsome like this..!!

Ishh.. All pics terbalik.. Hee
Today very happy..
Went to Red box with my fren..

This is Mr.Shean.. Handsome ehh

Cant u see me..?

Hmm.. Fried rice baby..

But my spagetti not that nice lah..

T__T

Never finish it also

B4 I went out today.

Took this at my mum's room

Hee =)

Very enjoy ehh today..

I sang all the song bcoz i was missin him that time..

Dear

Miss u ehh

I hope 1day I can sing to him face to face..

=)

Yenyeng ahh.. I hope u to be happy everday okie?

Not good to be moody..

Alwas enjoy yr life okie baby?

BEST FRIEND FOREVER..!!

I SWEAR

=)

All my life

All my life..
I've prayed for sum1 like u.. Baby..
And I hope that u feel the same too..
I hope u do love me too..





I LOVE GOD..!!

A discussion with MY LOVELY - Yap Yen Yeng..!!

Hmm..
Today I was so down
Bcoz Im thinkin of what should I do at this moment..



God..!!
I reali dunwan to leave u..!!
Im so sorry for what I've done..



SORRY..!!




Yenyeng..
Im here to say THANKS to u..
Bcoz ur alwax there for me when Im in need..!!
Thanks.. I do love u so much..!! <3 U agreed with me.. Yr support is the oni thing i want now..

U said YOU CAN TRY..

Thanks for this answer.. Im really appeaciated u..
Thanks so much..
I do love Him and him so much lah..
Sorry.. My lovely God..!!
Please lead me whenever Im in need..
Sorry..!!

I LOVE U

GOD

Him..

I know i love u..

How can it be..?!!

Today.. I miss him..
Always askin myself.. How can it be..?
I tot this year I wun fall in love with any1..



But............

HOW CAN IT BE..?

I HATE MYSELF

Im so confuse..

Im reali confused..!!

Any1 can help me..?

Gatherin =)

Hooray..!! Just came bck from a gatherin with my frens..
* Yenyeng
* Sherry
* Hui Wen
* Li ying
* Jian Pang




THANKS FOR GIVING ME A WONDERFUL DAY..!!
I love u all so muchie..!!
xD

Maybe its true.......

Maybe ts true.. I fall in LOVE with u




How can it be..?
Im stupid..!!

My result..!! xD

Hooray..

Just got all my exam paper except Physics.. This subject i know sure i'll fail.. Plus im not reali good at calculation.. That's why.. Fine

Just be happy for what God had given to me..!!

xD

My results for me is quite okie lah.. Just Addmaths failed..

Those who'r mankind sure fail this subj.. Haha * No any offenses to those who pass ohh *

Hehe..

Im prayin to God that i can pass for my Physic..!!

T____T

AMEN

We changed our MIND

Ish..
I tot we can attent to the weddin dinner?
At last..



My dad asked 3 of us.. ( Sisters and Me ) to stay at home..
Bcoz he need to fetch her sister ( auntie 4 ) xD




But its okie..
We have our plan too..!! xD


After goin to church we went to buy clothsfor attent the weddin dinner..
But then..
Not use at all..



Fine.
We went bck home around 4 then we took a nap until 6++
Quite fresh after the nap..
xD


As i said_____ Sleep always the BEST THING in the world _____ xD
Then my eldest sis's fren called her..
We plan to eat LokLok..



Then we went there around 7pm
Wahh.. I like the MatTohYao..!!
Niceehh xD



Then after eatin dinner,
We went to play mahjong..
But i dunno at all..



Haihh
Also sien d lah





But its okie
Lets wish tomorrow will be a GOOD DAY
Pray this with God's name..!!

AMEN

Weddin Dinner

Yeah.. Will attend myself and my family as well to a WEDDIN DINNER..
But not my weddin dinner lah of course.. ( Every1 knows ) xD




My cousin?
Err.. Relative lahh..
Dunno how to say.. Just to confuse..
Im wonderin that what's her relation with me..
Funny? Yes..!!
I cant remember =___=





Well..
Just bought a new shirt costed RM16!!

So cheap rite?
Plus its branded shirt which is sold in PADINI..
Not that branded also lah..


( Talkin rubbish )






And watched a movie just now..

_ The book Of Eli _
Nice ehh





=)

Exam was finished

Exam finished..
We were released..





But my maths got 66 ahh.. Why..?
Cant imagine how's my others sub..





Add maths will fail definately
Physics..
Chemistry..



Hmm.. Cant think of it
Its okie..
Just dun compare to others..
Every1 got talents rite..? <3




I HOPE I DO HAVE..!!





Yes.. Edwin Jay..
Ur retarted.. Asked me to sing the " Bad romance "
Dun u think its a tough task that I might not qualified to do?





Ur reali RETARTED..!!




But fine.. I would like to sing if ONLI I memorise thr lyrics..
xD



Dun be mad at me..
I just dun have high self-confidence like u do..
Haha






Monday will be a Good day..? Or terrible day..?
Hmm..? Am I suppose to use this adjective..?
Haha



Its bcoz of that day teachers will returns back the exam papers to us..
Lets pray to God that oni Add maths fail and not others subject T_____T

AMEN

CNY

Huh.. Bck to kampung

I alwax love to goin bck..

Bcoz can meet my relative..

Ohh yeah.. !!

Just too fun

Chicken farm..?

For me.. If there's no chicken farm at kampung..

Then its not KAMPUNG.. !!

xD

But i dun take pictures with CHICKEN.. !!

xD

Nahh.. Im getting fat..!!
Should cut down on sugar..


But..
Its not that easy to do that..






* Is prayingggggg *
LOL










Well..
Goin bck was a risk for us..
Bcoz we thought that there will be sumthin happened..
LOL..




But..
NO..!!





Amen..
Thanks God



For His loves and kind..
Leaded us with no any complaint..





I just LOVE You so much..
My dear God..!!

Muii

Muii cute xD

xD

Eiks.. Long time no see muii jor..

Eventhough we live near each other..

But alwax dun hv the chance to meet..

Yesterday she came to my house..

Bcoz her parents not home..

So she FORCED to come to my house..

Cheh.. !! * I tot she miss me * =.=

Its okie.. Fine..

I be bck at 4pm.. Saw her miss called..

Then called her bck..

After few mins..

She reached..

Then.. We talk talk talk..

She said she PONTENG.. !!

What..

My mind was fully blank that time..

Its okie..

I assume her was too playful..

But.. Should guide her properly..

T____T

Then she wanted to see CM..

She called him using my phone..

But its so lucky that CM was not free that time..

So cant go out..

Hahs xD

Then she was still not feel like giving up..

Fine..

She called WK..

Im sure WK dun go without me..

Hahs.. !!

Im correct..

Then muii give up edi..

We planed to go for a walk at playground..

Then we went to playground around 5pm+

我该怎么办？

怎么办?

Just ignore all these things..!!

Well.. Im being moody for so many days..

Time pass fast and I dun think I can handle it..







TROUBLESOME..!! I dunwan to face it..

As im scared.. Or worried..?







Huhh..

Im down.. What I can say now is.. IM DOWN..









For what was happened to my life..

As u know..

Im not that strong...







RIDICULOUS..!!

FUNNY..!!









Maybe.. U dun take it as a PROBLEM.. But I DO..!!







Okie..?

Please take yr responsibility..









SHOW ME THAT U LOVE me..!!

Can u..?









No1 knows that Im worryin bout all these things..

No1 I can share my problems..







NO1..!!

Life..

Im oni 16 this year..

Goshh..
Im oni 16 this year..
Why alot of trouble waitin for me..?



我好累
不懂怎么安慰你们
我也需要人安慰


笑
不代表快乐


哭
不代表不快乐




Ant1 understand my feelin rite now..?
Bcoz of Im still young..
So I dun hv anythin to help..




I dunwan to cry..
But tears drop drastically..!!





Is there any solution..?

Obstacles..
We can consider best friend now rite..?





Im tired..
But will nvr give up..




God..
Show me yr way..
As i pray.. I'll survive

Bola Tampar xD

Today went to Bola tampar activity koko.. xD





One word..




SYOK..!!

xD

Cell group =)

Today went to church nehh..
But.. We were late.. xD


Then.. We did what we usualy do..
Singing.. Praying.. And listen to the pastor..
Talk talk talk.. xD



Today's topic

EXTRA ORDINARY FAITH



Haha..
Nice yar..




After that we went to cell group at Sue Yee's house..
Quite funny..
Today is also xiiao yen's BDAE..!! xD
Happy bdae.. My sister in christ..!!





Cell group was fantastic..!!
Its alwax the best way to connect with our church's youth..!!
Amen..

Physics killing me..!!

Ohh.. Physics killing me..
Quite hard hor..
Sei mou..?





Must try more harder..
=)


Gah yao bah..

我讨厌现在的我..

Now form4 edi..

I want to be better than b4..

But there's no point that i rush too fast..

And it will brings me alot of trouble..

I started get into troubles..

Not alot.. But its makes me goin to be blank in my mind..

I dunno how others think about me..

But i know I've changed..

MY LIFE's GREY

Changed to sum1 that I nvr wanted to be..

Its so scary..

I dunwan to be like this..

Bcoz it maked me feel uncomfortable..

This is not the real me..

I suppose to be good and kind as b4..

But why..?

My temper.. My attitude..

Everythin in me..

Seems so hard to control..

I wan to be better in my studies..

But im too rush..

Rush untill its not the way I wan..

My tears drops..

Not droplet..

But look like a dropper..

Not reali easy to make it stop..

I wanna be better..!!

Can I..?

Will it be..?

Im so scare

Im so scare..
Im so scare..
Im so scare..





Now go into better class..
Im stress..
All classmates's result very good..
Can I handle the new syllabus?




If no tuition..
Will drop class ler..
And my class no 1 i know de..
All from b.c.d.e geh class geh






HOW?!!